Monday, 26 August 2013

Die goue-draad van my lewe

Soos ‘n Dromer het U vreesloos en met oorgawe oor my gedroom..

Soos ‘n Argitek het U met sorg en kreatiwiteit my lewe beplan en uitgelê..

Soos ‘n Engineur het U brûe vir my gebou sodat ek U altyd kan vind, selfs paaie in proposie en harmonie gebou om my journey te vergemaklik..

Soos ‘n Steenmaker het U klei gemeng en sorgvuldig in steenvorms gegiet tot ‘n duursame eindproduk wat tot deur die wêreld beny word..

Soos ‘n Bouer het U met stowwe van die aarde sement gemaak en met baie geduld steen vir steen waterpas gelê op ‘n stewige fondasie wat alle storms sal kan weerstaan..

Soos ‘n Verwer het U die mooiste kleure gekies en met toegewyde passie en tegniek my mure geverf wat my persoonlikheid kunsinnig weerspieël..

Soos ‘n Binnerversieder het U al my verwatinge oortref met U styl en funksionaliteit wat alles van my menswees bymekaar bring..

Soos ‘n Inspekteur het U seker gemaak dat die bloudruk van my lewe ooreenstem met U volmaakte plan en my U bloedgewaarmerkte waarborg gegee..

Vir my Veilighed het U ‘n legioen engele aangestel om my en my geliefdes 24huur te bewaak..

Soos ‘n trotse Eienaar het U-self die deur van my lewe gaan oopsluit, my die sleutel in my hand gesit, my vertrou om ‘n goeie rentmeester te wees en my die outoriteit gegee oor my eienaarskap..

Ek love my huis Here
Ek love my lewe Here
Ek love U
Suzette

Monday, 19 August 2013

once a spectator now a Gladiator


I will glorify YOUR NAME


Your word is a lamp that gives light wherever I walk. Write them on the tables of my heart so they are close to me. Your laws are fair, and I have given my word to respect them all. Even though my life is in danger I will never turn my back on You  nor will I ever forget You.  I have made up my mind to obey Your word forever, no matter what - they are my most prized possession and my source of joy.
 
You are my place of safetyy and my shield. Be true toYour word Lord; keep me alive and strong, safe and secure and protect me from abuse. Your word is my only hope.

Take good care of me, Your servant, and don’t let me be harmed by arrogant and proud people. My eyes are weary from waiting to see You keep Your promises. ShowYour love for me in a new way in this brand new season.  I serve You  Lord, hear my prayer an give me the understanding that comes from Your word.

~(Ps119)

Friday, 16 August 2013

In the shadow of my Ruins

How many of our relationships are in ruins… perhaps it is your marriage-  once a solid fortress, but now only the ruins of a once safe place. Maybe its your relationship with your children….  Or even worse… your relationship with Jesus.

Hopefully, for a split second, I caught your attention and with it came the realization I was actually talking to you.

 Hopefully you will force yourself 2 reach out & do something about it

“Still a song of adoration will rise up from these ruins

With my love and my sadness I come before You Lord. May heart’s in  thousand pieces, maybe even more. Yet I trust in this moment. You are with me somehow, and You have always been faithful. So Lord even now when all that I can sing is a broken hallelujah, when my only offering is shattered praise, still a song of adoration will rise up from these ruins and I will worship You and give You thanks. You have given me much more than I deserve - How could I doubt Your goodness, Your wisdom, Your grace?

Lord hear my heart at this painful place, when all I can sing is a broken hallelujah when my only offering is shattered praise … UNTILL I rise up from these ruins

Temptation came my way

I’ve been tempted.  And I have failed.

Many times.

I have beaten myself up for giving into temptation more than I can count. I have been so ashamed of myself that I have even tried to hide from God.  Pretended it didn’t happen.  I have made pacts with God and have sworn on my life…. All in the name of Jesus. Yeah, I’ve been bad.

And even made myself believe God shook my hand on all the deals I have made….. Am I the only one? Silly me.  I have even asked God why He has allowed me to stumble and fall, why He has allowed for it to knock on my door.

Until I discovered that I can only be dragged away, give into it, if the desire has been in my heart all along.  No wonder the bible says ‘of all things guard your heart the most…’

... but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. 15 Then, after the desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.— James 1:14

But I have learned that God is full of mercy and rich in love. You can start from scratch every single day [Lamentations 3:23][this ain’t a free ticket to live a sinful life!]. I have came to realize that I don’t need to make pacts with God, He has already made a way to forgive me… even if I have disappointed Him more than once.
Do you realize that? Know that we have a friend in Jesus, a Man who not only knows what it feels like to be tempted but who sympathizes with you and me… Even though Jesus was Jesus, He was at the time of His stay on earth, of flesh and blood—and He knows the feeling of being tempted, the struggle, the need, the rush, pumping adrenaline … that comes with the thoughts.—the tempting thoughts of giving into ‘whatever your battles are’.
Adultery, Over-eating, lies, greed, fornication, pornography, boasting, self-love, gossip, slander ~ don’t give in give it UP

 

Am I dead yet?

I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

For as long as I can remember I 've always struggled with negative thoughts…. Thoughts of insecurity; that I’m not clever enough, pretty enough, good enough – especially when I hear of someone else’s success or breakthroughs. I would ponder for days on ‘what have I done wrong’ or ‘did not do’ to have the same favour as others have had. Some days I don't even give it a thought and then there are those days.....
 
For the most part I am content with what I have when it comes to material things. It’s just that I’m at a place in my life where I question the direction of my life. Am I at the right place - my ministry, my job, my marriage, my friends, the choices I make ~ I feel weak, fragile, drained, wearied. It’s as if I’m in a desert place and there is just no way out – whatever way I choose to go on  it’s just not where the oasis is. Maybe I walked straight into the desert because of the mystified choices I’ve made or maybe I just drifted towards the desert without recognizing the danger .... I don't know how I got here. Or when.  I just know I am here.


 God, can You hear me? I want more. I want out. What am I missing?

You know me Jesus-----this isn't me. I'm drowning in the quick-sand of life. My visions are blurry and my steps far from steadfast. I'm overwhelmed by all the disappointments and the unanswered prayers. The battle has been hard and fierce. I have failed. I'm terrified and alone - Am I dead?  Please don't take Your Holy Spirit away from me....

Then  I hear A gentle voice in the wind…..

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

~ Isaiah 43 .18-9
 
Dear reader.  I prophecy this scripture over you who are broken hearted, wearied, confused, disappointed….

~ Hosea 2.15 ~ I will give her, her vinyards from there, and the Valley of Anchor as a door of hope; she shall sing there as in the days of her hope, as in the day when she came up from the land of Egypt.  

 

 

Monday, 5 August 2013

A Voice in the wind

LORD, the God of Israel...there is no one like You in heaven above or on earth below. You who keep Your covenant of love with Your servants who continue wholeheartedly in Your way.
 
The heavens, even the highest heaven, cannot contain You. Yet You give attention to Your servant’s prayer and his plea for mercy. When the heavens are shut and there is no rain because Your people have sinned against You, and when they pray toward You and give praise to Your name and turn from their sin because You have afflicted them, then hear from heaven and forgive the sins of Your servants, since You know their hearts. Teach them the right way to live, and send rain on the land You gave Your people for an inheritance.
In Your Mighty Name I pray. Amen.
       May the Lord our God be with us as He was with our ancestors; may He never leave us nor forsake us. May He turn our hearts to Him, to walk in obedience to Him and keep the commands, decrees and laws He gave our ancestors.
      And may these words of mine, which I have prayed before the Lord, be near to the Lord our God day and night, that He may uphold the cause of His servant and the cause of His people according to each day’s need, so that all the peoples of the earth may know that the Lord is God and that there is no other.
      And may Your hearts be fully committed to the Lord our God, to live by His decrees and obey his commands, as at this time.

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