A deceitful heart
John 21-25 After he had said this, Jesus was troubled in spirit and testified, "I tell you the truth, one of you is going to betray me." His disciples stared at one another, at a loss to know which of them He meant . One of them, the disciple whom Jesus loved, was reclining next to him. Simon Peter motioned to this disciple and said, "Ask him which one he means." Leaning back against Jesus, he asked him, "Lord, who is it?" I have meditated on these few verses for some time now and I am still at a place where I feel restless... suspicious... uneasy ... because I know how deceitful my own heart can be. (ps51.3 For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me.) The disciples knew their own hearts, their struggles and thoughts, those very intimate thoughts that you hide from the world - even though they loved the Lord.... I know I love the Lord and that I am really and truly committed and dedicated to Jesus and the Gospel, but to be truthfu