Restoration Ministries

Áfter listening to a teaching this morning I realised how my heart has changed. Hardened. Slowly. Unnoticed...for me anyway. I don't know exactly when it happened, I just know it did. I started living for myself; my comfort and my needs became my priority. If things did not go my way, if I was being ill treated, I would lash out and negativity would pour out of my mouth. Knowing the dangers of  it all, my bad behaviour, the words I have spoken; I still continued. I gave heed to the whispers of the enemy and got sucked into a world where I stopped being the peacemaker. A difference-maker. Made myself comfortable on a fence, licked my wounds and threw myself an epic pity party. Just sooo tired of the difficulties and challenges in my life. I hate being here. I hate being in this 'condition'...this state I am in. I know I am at fault. At some stage I have let my guard down and now I am facing the consequences. It feels like I have been mourning the death of someone,

I'm the first one in line to die When the cavalry comes Yeah it feels like the great divide Has already come I'm wasting my way through days Losing youth along the way Oh if God is on my side Who can be against me There was a greatness I felt for a while But somehow it changed Some kind of blindness I used to protect me From all of my stains Yeah I wish this was vertigo It just feels like I'm falling slow Oh if God is on my side Then who can be against me Yeah in this wasteland where I'm livin' There is a crack in the door filled with light And it's all that I need to get by Yeah in this wasteland where I'm livin' There is a crack in the door filled with light And it's all that I need to shine All of these people I meet It seems like they're fine Yeah in some ways I hope that they're not And their hearts are like mine Yeah it's wrong when it seems like work To belong all I feel is hurt Oh if God i