Restoration Ministries

Is this me ? God I am so ashamed of the burning desires in my heart - my flesh aches for the fulfillment of it. I have fallen so hard, so fast! Am I a disgrace to You Father? Why do I long for more , for true happiness? Is there such a thing as true happiness Jesus? Is it so wrong to crave that, to desire more, to long for something - something I am even ashamed to name, sometimes? Father I cannot do this anymore - I have been true to You, for many a year - but this I can do no more. Let this yearning in me subsides...

when temptation came my way i didn't look away my need was so intense is this my only defense? my sin runs deep will Your grace be more? is this yet another thing that i will reap? who is it that i really adore? will Your mercy endure the sins of my betraying flesh? will this also pass? help me out of this mess! where grace is found, are You there? and where You are Lord, am I really free? or have i forfeited Your trust - oh Lord, how can this be? help me to rise to You when temptation comes my way! and when i cannot stand help me to fall on You.

Create in me a clean heart, O God! and renew a steadfast spirit within me. ~ Psalm 51:10

Jesus of all the people in this whole wide world... only You know me. Truly know me... the condition of my heart....I cannot hide this from You ~ I need to break away, break free. I need to recap. I need to save myself. I need to heal. Help me make a way....